Who I am and why I’m here

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Okay, so I spent an awful long time deliberating over how to start this post, so I’m just going to go with my gut.

Hello.

My name is Scarlett. I am sixteen years old, and I live in Yorkshire, England.

That’s me, in a nutshell. I started doing one of those blogging 101 things to get the ball rolling, and day 1 said that I should write a “who I am and why I’m here” post. I felt like just writing “you tell me”.

I don’t really know what I’m doing. I’ve tried to be a blogger before, but I’ve never managed to stick with it. I’ve been reading a lot of “how to blog” posts and one of the number one things that has come up is that it’s really not very good for your blog if you abandon it. It always happens. I’m too lazy, or I put it off too long, or I forgot, or some other crappy excuse that means the same things as all the others; it wasn’t super easy, so I gave up.

It’s a trait I have, and it’s not a good one, but it’s a part of me none the less. That’s who I am. I give up. I’m a quitter. A loser. And I’m sick of it.

Another thing that came up when I was looking at those blogging how to’s was that you should establish clear goals to help you achieve when it comes to writing on your blog. Well, here’s my goal; I don’t want to give up. I don’t want to quit this and have another half done half thought through project that I cared about for a day, or a week, or a month, and then gave up on like I did everything else. I want to do this.

I’m sick of being a self-made loser.

As for what I think I’ll say, I’m not entirely sure. Maybe I should just talk about things I care about, like travel and bees, or maybe things that affect my life, like schoolwork and my hopes and dreams or whatever. Probably it’ll be about what I try to accomplish, how I get there, what I do when I’m not accomplishing (aka most of the time, and maybe, hopefully every once in a while, I can post about something that I do accomplish. Maybe I’ll achieve something every once in a while and I can write about it one here. Maybe this blog can inspire me to.

I’ll probably post more about my life, though; the things I do, the places I go, maybe even things I buy. I’m not sure yet. It just feels like I’m at this blank canvas and I can paint any picture I want to. I’ll probably make it abstract as hell, because that’s kinda how my life is.

So let’s set a real goal; I’m going to stick at this for at least a year. A whole year. Should be an interesting one, too. I’ve got my GCSE’s, and then I’ll be leaving school, choosing my A Levels, heading out into the big wide world, and I still have no freaking clue what I want to do with my life. The fact that this all happens in the next year is freaking terrifying. I try not to think about it (although by the way, as I’ve learnt from experience, not an effective way to deal with your problems). So, let’s see where this crazy journey takes me. This time next year, I don’t want to be a quitter or a loser.

I’m done with being a self-made loser. Time to be a self-made winner.

Scarlett

27 thoughts on “Who I am and why I’m here”

  1. I really like your blog; you write really nicely and fluently. I’m also in my GCSE year and slightly concerned about life after GCSE’s……. 😂😂 Anyways, good luck with your blog, stick at it! 😀

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  2. I just write about what happens to me on a daily basis in the most humorous way that I can. Welcome to the blogging world. It’s not hard. Be sincere and be yourself and you’ll be fine!

    Type out all your frustrations too… I find that blogging is just another way to make friends on the “play ground” – I just talk to them like I’m hanging out with them and telling them my latest story. “Oh, my god, do you know what just happened to me?”

    It’s a great way to connect with others from all over the world. You’ll become part of a community. We care about each other and their health and well-being.

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    • Thank you:) I’m probably just going to end up retelling my entire life on here haha. And a lot happens to go wrong in my life, so I have a lot of of “oh my god guess what happened” type of stories.

      And I’m really looking forward to the community. So far everyone seems lovely and it’s really wonderful to feel cared about even if you’ve not posted that much.

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  3. I think it’s important to remember that your blog is about YOU. Your feelings, your view, your day, your life. I don’t know about others, but I find it really interesting reading blogs where people just express their views and talk about themselves! So just remember it’s your blog, write about you because people are interested in what you have to say! 🙂

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    • Thank you:) I’ll probably just end up writing random bits about what I’m trying to do or what I’ve done that day:) I’m working on a post now about my recent trip to California (which is probably going to be super long and take forever, so that will keep me busy for a while haha), but seriously, thank you for the advice, it means a lot to me that you’re being this nice.

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      • Well I look forward to reading that then! My family and I went on a road trip around California and Arizona in the summer and I loved it! Can’t wait to read what you have to say. A little bit of being nice is important!!!

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  5. You have enormous expectations of yourself, which generally is a good thing, but in your case it’s too much pressure. Take it easy on yourself, and perhaps take some time to figure out what you want to write about, what’s important and relevant to you. You’re stressing yourself out you poor thing. I think most of us didn’t really have a clue about what we were going to write about when we first started our blogs, it takes time to develop your ideas and focus so go with the flow. I was quite eager about starting to write but I found that life gets in the way, and I also was judging myself on everything I wanted to post. I just write about any in my head, and if people don’t like it they don’t have to read it.

    I like the way you write, there’s a flow there, and I suspect you have a lot to say. Just remember that this is a journey, and you’re doing it for your own pleasure. There are a lot of lovely understanding people out there who would enjoy your blog, and they’ll find you in time, but no one expects you to write every day. I certainly don’t! Good luck with everything. I know how difficult study can be, and to have to decide what you’re going to do at an early age when in reality you have no clue. In the end I went with psychology because that’s what I really love. I’m going to follow you by the way because I like how you write. I found you because joneshth wrote a post telling people to look at your blog. You have a really good friend there to help support you, so I say take advantage of him! (Sorry joneshth). Make sure you head on over to the commons if you need to as well. I’ll be happy to help in any way I can, even if it’s a sympathetic ear, so if you want come on over to my blog (justconsideritblog.wordpress.com) or email me justconsideritblog@gmail.com and harass me!

    Emily

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    • Thank you so much for being so kind:) it’s very rare that someone tells me I’m trying too hard, normally I’m constantly being told to try harder, and I suppose it’s just that fear of failure that makes me put this much pressure on myself. I’m defiantly still finding my feet when it comes to actual content, and I think that much is still pretty obvious right now, but I’m enjoying working on it and it’s actually kind of fun trying to figure out what I prefer writing about and what I don’t, so right now I guess I’m just kind of sampling what it is I want to be talking about.

      And thank you, I definitely have a lot to say, but how much of it is worth saying is still in deliberation haha. Right now I’ll just try and enjoy the journey and see where I end up:)

      And study can be a real pain. I have no idea what I want to do, as a kid I flip flopped from wanting to be a director to wanting to be a lawyer to wanting to be an author. I just never really had a long term dream of what I wanted my life to be like, and that never really caused me any problems until about six weeks ago when it became most important that anybody ever wants to talk to me about, particularly in school situations. I won’t go into detail about it, but it’s hard to be in a position where your the only one around without a plan or a specific skill set.

      Thank you for the follow! And joneshth has been really fantastic even though I’ve not known him a long time, and I’m super grateful for how amazing he has been. Also, thank you for being this amazing too!! It’s always wonderful to hear people being so constructive and positive when you are trying to start something. It means the world to me how wonderful everyone has been since I started posting:)

      Thank you again for your help:)

      Scarlett

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      • I think from what you’re saying that deep down you know why you’re finding things too difficult, and you’re right, it’s fear of failure. I’m guessing what you said about pressure means that everyone is telling you what to do, and you’re resenting it and that’s totally understandable. I’m sure you feel that if only only people would back off a bit, then you could try and figure out what it is you want to do in life. I understand, because I was fast-tracked through school and had to decide what I was going to do at university when I was your age. I hope you don’t mind me offering some advice (although I know you’re sick of it!), and that’s to choose subjects that you enjoy. That’s it, that’s the trick about these things. Don’t let anyone talk you into doing subjects that you don’t like, because you won’t do well at them, and you won’t be happy, and believe me, life is way too short and goes too fast to be miserable!

        I think you’re a lovely girl who feels quite alone at the moment, and I know a lot about that myself, so I’m here if you need me for anything. I enjoy how you write, so I’m interested in what you have to say. For me, blogging is about talking about my life, the things that I care about, and also to discuss the things that are effecting me personally, but everyone is different of course (I could say that most people actually write about what they want other people to know about, but that’s beside the point). It’s completely up to you as to what you write about, and it’s completely up to you as to what you do for your subjects. There’s absolutely no point in deciding to do things because other people want you to.

        I meant what I wrote by the way, if you want to chat, feel free to contact me for a chat.

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  6. I’m glad I managed to direct Emily to your blog Scarlett. I couldn’t have phrased what Emily said any better myself. You write wonderfully and don’t forget that. I feel really happy to have helped and for you to be describing me as “fantastic”! Thank you. I hope I’ve given you as much joy as you have given me.
    Henry

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  7. And Emily’s right; although I have barely any experience in blogging, if you do ever want to take advantage of me, I’m always happy to share my very limited knowledge!! 🙂
    Henry

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